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He Departed-Into a Mountain Alone

Pastor and author A.W. Tozer

August 8, 1954

Last Sunday night I talked to you about Jesus and the great multitude that surrounded Him, and I tried to tell you why He was among them. Tonight I have another text from the same chapter all together that follows hard on His miracle of the loaves and the fishes, and this one is altogether different. This one says, when Jesus therefore perceived that they would come and take Him by force to make Him a king, He departed again into a mountain Himself alone. Himself alone. In verse fifteen, in verse one, or rather two, a great multitude did follow Him. Now, Himself alone.

I want to talk to you tonight about Jesus, about the why Jesus went into a mountain. In the first place, Jesus did depart into this mountain, Himself alone. It is easy to establish from the New Testament that this was a practice of our Lord and not an unusual occurrence at all.

In His first forty days, you will remember that when He went into the wilderness there that time, for forty long days He was alone in the wilderness. Himself alone. In Luke 6:12 it tells us that He went up into a mountain and continued all night in prayer to God.

Matthew 14:23 says He sent the multitudes away and departed and went up into a mountain apart. And then that famous passage in Matthew 26.39 where it says that He told His disciples to come near and stay with Him. Then He said, now you stay here and pray. And he went a little further.

Now, those verses I have given you establish the truth, if it needed to be established, that our Lord had a habit of every once in a while, departing from the multitudes and going somewhere by Himself into a desert, up into a mountain, or up under the trees in the olive yard, anywhere where He could be by Himself. This was not only true of our Lord Jesus Christ, but true also of the worthy Saints.

I was thinking as I rode along on the train about this. And I was thinking about that man Enoch. Now no doubt Enoch was a married man. He was a married man, a man of family. He left at least one son behind him. He no doubt had to make a living of some sort. He didn’t live merely on spirituality. He had to eat and a place to keep his family. And yet we don’t learn very much about his family at all. When he took a walk, it was with God. Enoch walked with God. You get a sense of loneliness there, a sense of being himself alone with God.

And then there was Noah. Now, of course the earth was full of people in that day, and Noah had his wife and his sons and the rest of them there. But when you read about Noah, you have a sense that you’re reading about one man alone. His walk with God separated him so that he was more or less alone.

Then there was Abraham. It came to pass that God said unto Abraham, Get thee out of thy country and out from thy kindred and unto a land that I will show thee. Abraham must have been by himself at that time. I surely think he was. I doubt whether God touched Abraham on the shoulder during a card party or even a coffee clutch. I think that Abraham was by himself, and unquestionably he was by himself cultivating his soul.

Then there was Jacob. Twice Jacob had experiences. There was that first wonderful experience there in the back side of the desert, in the waste howling wilderness, when God appeared to the man. There was that second experience by the river side when God appeared to him again. And both of those times he was all together by himself.

And I have read tonight in your hearing the story of Moses on the mount, one time that he was on the mount. And before that, Moses had knelt in rapture beside the burning bush, alone, himself. Take this man Job. You read the book of Job, and you will learn from it that Job had a habit of being with God alone.

Elijah came down from the hillsides and mountains of Tishbi and stood before the king. He said, I stand before God. Those were the only credentials he carried, that he stood before Jehovah. And it was in loneliness that Elijah learned his great lessons. And the prophets, you will read about them and how they were alone with God. David’s psalms are psalms of loneliness. They’re also psalms of fine, sweet, social joys. But those times of social joys were interspersed by times of loneliness when he and God were alone.

Now, let us inquire why our Lord Jesus Christ departed into a mountain Himself alone. And why He was not singular in this, but it was the practice of all the Bible worthies. Let us inquire why. Why did these persons withdraw themselves from human society for periods of time ranging anywhere from a few hours to many days, and their wait alone in the presence of God?

Now to get at that and get an answer to it, we’re going to have to go into the very root and rationality of salvation. You follow along and bear with me while I try to tell you why Jesus went by Himself alone. It dates back and goes back to the whole philosophy of God and man and human society.

I’m going to talk quite a little tonight about retiring from human society. And in the doing of it, I want you to know what I mean by society. In the newspapers, society means people with mink coats and whose names are in the social register. It is commonly called high society. A society matron did so and so. That means high society. But I am not talking about high society. I’m talking about human society.

And human society is a name given to the circle of people that we touch. Whether they be our own within our family, a man and his wife and child form a little circle of society. And then all her relatives and all his relatives, a bigger circle of society. And then the friends of themselves and all the relatives and the friends of the relatives, they form a bigger circle.

And then there are lodges where men touch each other and in baseball games and hunting parties and golf tournaments. And even where we work and even when we’re shopping, we’re facing human society. Wherever we go, wherever people are, that’s society. A group of human beings living together forms a society whether it’s a man and wife and their baby or whether it be a great crowd, a multitude as it said here of Jesus. Now that’s what I mean by society.

And the whole philosophy of society, God and man and society is wrapped up in this thing that Jesus did. When Jesus came and went by Himself alone, the whole thing rooted back down into the fact that human society is what it is and God is what He is and man is what he is.

Now let’s look for a bit about human society. And I say this knowing that you are evangelical Christians, but some places I would have to make a case for this and argue it and then I would be argued down. Human society is lost. Now I hold in my hand a Bible composed of 66 inspired books and the burden of that whole Bible is that human society is lost. And by lost, I mean that its legal position is to be under divine sentence. Human society is under divine sentence.

I just read an article while I had a sandwich after I came back from Des Plaines where I preached, before I came up here tonight, and I read there an article about the church, all the churches of the United States getting together, all Protestantism uniting. And they were talking about what it could be that could get us together, how we could get together in the long discussion.

But they gave a little illustration that I thought was well worthy of repeating. It said some church somewhere, some group of people somewhere, that a motion was placed before the house that the church members in that denomination do not drink and that they would not receive anybody or allow anybody in the church to drink hard liquor. And one pastor whispers, if this motion carries, I won’t have a man on my board. Not a man on his board. He’d better have had no board.

But anyway, human society, my friends, is a group of people and that they are lost, that they’re under divine sentence. Now the churches don’t believe that now. Mostly they don’t believe it now, but that is what the Bible teaches. And churches where all the board members drink naturally don’t accept anything like this.

But it is true that the Bible does teach that human society is under divine sentence and that its moral condition is described as walking according to the prince of the power of the air and hating and being hated and deceiving and being deceived, full of sin all the time. That’s the moral condition of society. And the spiritual condition of society is cut off from the life of God.

Now let’s get that first of all. I preach too many times tonight to have a good baritone voice, Brother Sheldon, but I’ll do my best with what I got about what you do if you’re up here.

Now let’s get this straight, that human society according to the Bible is lost. It is under judicial sentence from God. And it is cut off from the life of God. And it is morally corrupt. Now that’s human society, not one segment of human society, but human society.

And the next thing is that that society exercises over each of its members a strange and terrible fascination. That it exercises a powerful molding influence and a magnetic attraction and an irresistible compulsion by its power of suggestion and example.

Now society, organized society, exercises over the individual this magnetic attraction. It’s a strange thing, and it’s a beautiful thing in some ways, how the individual is influenced by his circle and by the people that he knows and the people that touch him and the people he reads about even in history. Human society exercises, I repeat, a magnetic attraction over each individual member.

How is God going to save a man, the individual man? How can he save the individual man when society is lost and society exercises over that individual man an influence so powerful that it molds him from the time he’s born until he dies, that it attracts him, that it overwhelms him, it has a magnetic attraction upon him, it hypnotizes him, it holds him in thrall.

How is God going to save a man from a ship that’s going down? How is he going to rescue the individual when the individual is a part of a larger whole and that larger whole controls the individual and that larger whole is lost, perishing, under sentence, cut off from the life of God, full of iniquity, destined for final condemnation, and yet in that mass, in society, God has a few individuals. And He wants to save those individuals. He wants to save them.

How is He going to get them off of that sinking ship? How is He going to disengage them from the attraction of society? How is He going to deliver them from the thrall of society? How is He going to break the stranglehold of society upon them?

Now, He’s going to deliver them from society, and what I mean by saved from society, I’ll explain what I do not mean first by saved from society, I don’t mean saved from the society of mankind. Some have so interpreted this. They have properly and rightly seen that God must save men from fallen society to save them at all, and they’ve interpreted it to mean that we are to withdraw from society altogether.

So we have hermits, and the poets have talked about the Eremites. An Eremite is just another name for a hermit, very beautiful poetic name. And they have gone off by themselves and lived alone and gotten old and gray and moldy and usually bitter, in the woods somewhere, withdrawing from human society altogether.

Now, that’s exactly what I don’t mean, and that’s exactly what the Bible does not mean, for the Bible is a wonderfully social book. If you read your Bible, you will find it’s a social book. You will find that people lived together in that Bible. They touched each other in that Bible. They loved each other. They were together there in that Bible. And in the Old Testament, they worshiped God together, and they lived together, and they loved together, and they died together. And in the New Testament, they were together when the Holy Ghost came. The Bible is a social book.

Old Saint Bernard, or Bernard of Clooney it was, who wrote the Celestial City, when he said of Jerusalem the golden, I know not, oh I know not, what social joys are there, what radiancy of glory, what joy is beyond compare, he was recognizing the fact that we are made for each other, and that we are not right when we are alone, that we’re incomplete when we’re alone, that God made us for each other. And a lone man is not quite normal. A man who is by himself, or all the time alone, is not quite normal. He needs society, and society needs the individual.

And the Bible is a social book. It is a book of fellowship. And the very word fellowship means the condition of being fellows, equals with people. So, the Bible is not the book of the hermit. It is not the book of the monk, who begs from door to door with his little rice bowl in his hand and his shoes off his feet. No, the Bible is a social book. It’s a book of living together.

But the trick is now, as I repeat, if society is lost under the judicial sentence of God, without life and without hope in the world, and God wants to save members of society for Himself, how is He going to save a man from society and break the stranglehold of society upon him? I say, it is not by having that man desert human society and become a monk. How then is He going to do it? He’s going to do it by taking them not from society but breaking the power of society upon them.

Now the attraction of society has to be neutralized on the individual. That magnetism has to be broken. He’s going to have to somehow break the power of gravity that holds the man’s heart to the mass. He’s going somehow to need to break the invisible cords that binds that man. He’s going to have to take away from the neck of that man the fingers that are strangling him and shake him loose from society, so that its power over him is broken. It is not by retreat from human society, but victory in human society that the Bible teaches for its Christians. The influence must be counteracted, and the power must be destroyed. How is that accomplished?

And now we get back around to the text again. We read that Jesus went up into a mountain Himself alone. He sent the multitude away and went up into a mountain Himself alone.

So my brethren, we get it now and begin to see the light. That God saves men from society by breaking the power of society upon them, fallen society, lost society, society under divine sentence, sinful society; break its attractiveness, lose its stranglehold, turn the individual man free.

How can he do that and keep doing that? How can a man maintain that kind of an attitude in a world like this? How can he walk in the world and not be of the world? How can he mingle with society and not be attracted by and strangled by society? How can he be a free man and a saved man in a society that is going down?

The answer is simply by retiring frequently from society. Not by retreating from human society, but breaking the power of society over the man by retiring frequently from society.

Why does a man retire from society? Why does the Bible teach all the way through? And why does the echo sound all down the quarters of the centuries that saints always had their lonely times, that great Christians always had their times when it could be said of them himself alone? The answer is they were obeying God, and they were alone not to retreat from reality, but to retire from society and commune with God.

I hold in my hand an imaginary little affair. Maybe it’s a shape of a cross, and it’s entirely dead. There’s nothing to it. It’s just there, and I can see it because it’s in my hand there. As long as that lead pencil has got a cross on it, I see it. It’s got a little mark. We can hang it up, a little affair. We can hang it up, and it has no life in it. It’s just a dead thing. I hold it in my hand.

Now the night is coming on, and I know the night will come on before many hours, and yet I want that thing to be separated from the night. I want it to break the spell of the darkness that will soon engulf it, and I want it to shine. I want it to stand out clear in the night. How would I do it? I’d take it for an hour and put it on the windowsill where the sun can hit it, and the sun shines on it for an hour. It is treated with some kind of chemical, and then the sun after shining a while on that, you take that thing and put it, hang it on the wall there, and then let the night come.

Let the shadows deepen and the darkness descend. Walk into the room and there shines your little cross, bright and clear and cheerful on the wall, though it before was but a dead thing. An hour in the sunlight prepared it for a long night of shining.

You’ve seen those little crosses. You can buy them at each company or anywhere where they sell such things. What do they have on them, brother? Radium, some sort of thinned-down radium, I suppose. They give off some kind of light after it has first absorbed it, then it gives it off. It slowly wears out, and by the time the morning light has come around again, the poor little old cross is pretty thinned out. He doesn’t have much left, but he’s got enough, had enough to shine through the night.

Now that’s exactly, at least it’s some kind of an illustration. Here we are in the midst of the world and the darkness is around about us. How can we break the power of the darkness? The answer is expose yourself sometimes to God. Retire sometimes from human society and expose the Godward side of your soul to the sunlight.

The light of God will shine down on you, and you will absorb God’s ways, God’s thoughts, God’s emotions, God’s personality, the ways of God. And then, when you’re thrust back into the darkness of society again to make your living, you’ll shine with the reflected light of borrowed glow.

There’s the reason Jesus went into the mountain. They surrounded him all day long. They took a world of life and energy out of the man, Christ Jesus. Their bickering and their jealousy and their evil talk and their just sheer worldliness took a lot out of Him. And He became tired. What is He going to do? Surrender to it all? No, He sent the multitudes away and it came to pass that He went up into a mountain Himself alone and turned the Godward side of His soul up toward heaven and for a long time exposed His soul to the face of God.

And when that sweet and precious hour was over, He came down the mountain again to still the waves and to bless mankind and to help the multitude. But He couldn’t help the multitude by staying among them. He had to help the multitude by retiring and getting power so that when He came among them, He had what they needed.

Why do we retire frequently from society? I have said to commune with God. And I say also to bathe our soul in silence. I’ve said it before, it’s altogether too noisy a world. People are children. They love noise.

A little girl came home, they tell me from a party. And her mother said, honey, did you have a good time? She said, mother, did we? She said, we got to laughing and then we got to screaming. And she said, we just, all 12 of us screamed and screamed and screamed. She said, I’ve never had such a good time.

And they don’t outgrow it when they’re five or six. Get out on the highway and see these boys with the hot rods. They go roaring away. I said to the driver, that fellow’s under 30. He’s under 30. If he’s over 30, he’d never have opened that thing like that. He’s under 30. There’s something about childhood and immaturity that likes noise. But maturity wants less of it. And old age doesn’t want none. Just don’t like it.

And so, in our moral lives, in our religious lives, in our philosophical lives, in our social lives. The more immature we are, the more we’ve got to cheer ourselves by just screaming and screaming what a time we have.

And you know, we’ve got that kind of religion in the world today. A lot of it, so-called evangelicalism, is simply the religion of the little girls who scream. The louder we yell, the more noise we make, the more we advertise, the more bells we jingle, and the more songs we play, and the more talk we do, the happier we are because there’s immaturity. But the mature saint finds that sometimes he has to recharge his batteries in the silence.

Old Moses, he was learned in all of the learning of the Egyptians, but when God wanted to use him to deliver the children of Israel, He had to give him another degree. And it took him 40 years to get it. In the backside of the desert, in the silence. And oftentimes for long periods, the only sound he would hear would be the muffled munching of the sheep as they munched their cuds, lying there in the darkness under the stars.

God put Moses to school to the silence. He said, Moses, you’ve been at court where everybody talks. You’ve got to learn the therapeutic value of silence. You’ve got to get alone. And so, Moses learned it, and learned it well in the silence.

And when our Lord came, when it would get too much for His human heart to endure any longer, He’d say, all right, you go your way. And He’d disappear, and they’d look everywhere for Him, couldn’t find Him. They didn’t know which rock to look behind. They didn’t know which tree He might be kneeling beside. He was bathing His heart in the silence.

Do you hear that? [airplane going overhead] It’s that that’s damning the human race. It’s that that’s sending men to premature graves with nerve breaks and heart failures. It’s noise and tension and pressure and squeeze. You can’t escape it. How can you escape it? We’re living in the middle of it. We can’t all go to Arizona. If we all did, Arizona would be as noisy as Chicago. How are you going to do it?

The answer is you can’t retreat from it, but you can retire from it sometimes. You can get alone and break the pressure and squeeze and push of human society and wait on God.

Oh, I don’t know whether I’m wasting this. I don’t suppose I am. I know some of you are hearing me. Friends, you’ll learn more in the silence than you will listening to me preach. You’ll learn more in retirement with your God than you’ll ever learn in all the Bible schools on the continent. You’ll learn more as you bathe your soul in silence and turn your face up to the light of God in retirement.

Then this may sound very strange to you because this isn’t usually preached in fundamental circles too much. To us is such a thing as holding familiar fellowship with the powers of the world to come. I don’t know that I know what that means. I’m preaching about something that I can’t define. I often do, and I don’t know whether I can define the powers of the world to come or not.

But it has been the belief of all religious people and all Bible people that there is another world just above the world where we live. If not above geographically or astronomically, then above in quality of life, that kingdom of God.

And all through the Old Testament there walked wonderful creatures. The angel came to Abraham, three of them. And strange beings came to Gideon when he was threshing and to Samson’s mother when she was in the field. And she dashed home to tell her husband, come back and see this wonderful man. They made a sacrifice. And he leaped into the middle of the fire and disappeared in fire.

Were they crazy? Were they insane people? Were they fanatics? No. They were normal, sane people, and their future and subsequent living proved that they were. But they had gotten in touch with another world than this world. They’d heard another voice and seen another vision and communed with the powers of the world to come.

I’ve never had a vision in my life, and I have never dreamed a dream that I ever amounted to anything. I dreamed some weird ones in my day, and I have dreamed some beautiful and some terrible ones too. But I never believed any of them amounted to anything. So, I’m not a visionary nor a dreamer; maybe not enough so. But I believe that we’re not alone in this world.

And I believe that God has not deserted the earth. And I believe that His messengers, flaming spirits, are in this earth. For He tells us the little child has its guardian angel.

Jesus said God would have sent 12 legions of angels. And angels did come to comfort Him while He prayed. The angel came to Peter and tapped him on the shoulder and said, get up and let him out and turned him loose.

Come into the book of Revelation and you walk into a wonderful wonder world of living creatures. Throwback the blinds and look into heaven and you see beasts and living creatures and elders and angels flying in the midst of heaven. Now, is that all nonsense? Are we all to shrug that off and smile a superior, supercilious smile and say that belongs to the childhood of the race? No, we dare not.

Jesus, our Lord, was announced by an angel, the angel of the annunciation, he is so magnificently called in history, the angel of the annunciation. And when He had died and was in the tomb, the angels were there to say He’s not here, He’s risen.

Now, if you’re getting frightened, I’ll tell you, I never saw an angel either. I don’t believe in seeing angels. That is, I couldn’t see an angel with these old 20-20s. I can’t possibly, and there are 20-2 with these specs on them. I couldn’t see an angel that way and I wouldn’t think I’d quite care to hear an angel either.

But you can’t sell short the universal testimony of the holiest saints of the ages. And you can’t, you dare not deny the teachings of the Bible that there’s another world impinging upon this world and the doors swing open both ways.

Jacob saw them go up and come down and go up and come down. Somebody called attention, they went up before they came down. Strangely, they must have been down there with Jacob all the time and he didn’t know it. They were ascending and descending. They didn’t come down and go up, they went up and came down, they’d been down.

Now, why do we retire from society sometimes into the secret silence to wait on God and turn our hearts up to His sunshine? I’ve told you two things, I’ll tell you now this third one, that we might commune with or at least know the powers of the world to come.

I have knelt in my study and in the various little places where they put me when I preach in these conventions here and there, in hotel rooms. I have knelt with my Bible open and shut out every noise, locked my door and waited. And soon you begin to have a feeling, a sense, it’s not a feeling, it’s not an emotion at all, you’re as calm as a noon day in June.

But there is a sense of absolute well-being, a sense of complete harmony with the universe, a sense of being where God is, a refreshing, healing, delightful sense that can only come by being in tune with God and retiring from the creche of society to let God speak to your heart. It isn’t anything God says, I couldn’t quote what God said, it isn’t anything you see because you couldn’t paint what you see, it’s beyond that, it’s deep, deep in the heart.

So, Jesus escaped the toils and magnetic strangling influence of society by retiring from it sometimes and calming Himself and collecting Himself and warming His fires at the heat of God’s love and calming Himself in the stillness. And you and I must do the same thing.

This is 18th century preaching, worse than that 17th century preaching, better than that first century preaching, better than that, David’s message and Moses and Abraham and Job and Jacob and Enoch and the rest of them, they all had to learn it, brethren. And the reason we’re such shallow Christians and backslide so easily and get discouraged so soon, we live on the surface and in the noise. Meditation on the great solemn truths of God, feed the heart and strengthen it. Usually it can’t be done except, himself alone.

Now a word about the current usage of social ideas. The teaching now is almost everywhere, simply this, that each individual in society must seek two things, or get these two things, social integration and social adjustment. Hear those two phrases. They sound so learned that they must be so, but they’re not. Social integration.

Now what does that mean? You hear that every place. We should seek social integration. We should bring our children up so they’re integrated socially. Social integration simply means this. It means that we are submerged in society completely. Social integration.

You pour a cup of water into a tub of water and there is achieved immediate integration. You go back and say, your mother says, honey, go back and get that water. You go back, how are you going to find it? It’s a mix now, it’s gone with all the rest of the water. It’s integrated. It once was a lonely cup of water.

Now it’s integrated in a larger society. So they’re saying, social integration, get submerged, lost in society. They want me to study, to submerge myself in a society that’s already lost, to lose myself in a lost society. It’s like telling me to chain myself to the deck of a sinking ship. Social integration. Everybody yelling about that now. And the other one is social adjustment.

The teacher says, oh, she’s a well-adjusted child. I don’t think he’s properly adjusted. What’s the matter with you? Are you not adjusted? Somebody gets the heebie-jeebies a little and they run off to a psychiatrist and he says, why, the trouble with you, Madam, is you’re not adjusted. Now, you sit down, we must talk this over. You’ve got to get adjusted. Always tinkering with their infernal little screwdrivers, wanting to adjust us.

Brethren, the Bible doesn’t teach adjustment and integration. It teaches detachment and repudiation.

A nurse is sent to a leper colony. And the only way she can be any use to that leper colony is be completely detached from it. The moment she gets adjusted to leprosy, she’s got leprosy. And the moment she gets integrated in leprous society, she’s got leprosy. Pretty soon she’ll have no fingers either. She can only serve a leprous society by detachment from the leprous society.

So, the Christian is one who has been saved from a lost society. And then somebody says, get integrated back into that society. And I answer, excuse me, sir, but I shall not. I had a tough enough time in repentance and tears in the seeking of the face of God. I had a tough enough time to get converted and saved and renewed and regenerated.

And I have a tough enough time keeping with that very society from sucking me down. So instead of getting integrated into it, I want to retire frequently from it and be there with God alone. Then when I come back to it, I can bless it. Then when I come back to it, I have something for it. And I can help a poor lost society because I’ve come down from the high place and I’ve got something to tell society.

But if I surrender to them and I let them beat me down and frighten me and intimidate me and absorb me, I have nothing for them at all. I come as bad as they are, leprous as they are. How can I bind a leper’s sores when I need somebody to bind my sores? How can I bring hope to hopeless men when I’ve got a hopeless heart beating in my bosom?

How can I calm men when I’m all excited myself? Go into the silence. Retire into thy closet and when thou hast shut the door, pray unto thy Father which seeth in secret, and thy Father which seeth in secret shall reward thee openly.

Then in calmness and assurance you come down from the high place and into the dark valley where men, frightened and sick, are everywhere trying to get integrated. You say to them, boy, you don’t want to seek integration, you want to seek repudiation.

Say, no, to this society instead of, yes. Live in that everlasting, no, I won’t, and then turn to God and say an everlasting yes. And the same lips that utter an everlasting, yes, to God must utter an everlasting, no, to society.

So, it’s detachment and repudiation. Detachment from the harmless parts of society and repudiation of the harmful ones. For there are some things that are not harmful in society. It’s lost society, but there are some things that are not harmful. We work, we buy, we sell, we marry, we give in marriage, we mingle with men. It’s not harmful. We visit the beautiful spots and see the great scenery, that’s not harmful. We read the great books, hear the great music, not harmful.

You don’t have to give up Beethoven if you love great music. You don’t have to give up Milton or Shakespeare or Dickens if you love great literature. You don’t have to give up the great masters if you love great art. There are some harmless things in society.

You say, how do you treat them? Detachment. Detachment. Appreciate them, but never let them get you. Never let them get you. Stay detached. Love them, appreciate them, admire them, and then turn your back on them. Raise your affections to the heaven above where Christ sits at the right hand of God. Get all you can out of them for you, but never let them master you. Detachment is the word.

Then there are the harmful and evil parts of society. The drinking, the gambling, the rousing, the carousing–repudiate that. And all that is dark and evil and low, repudiate it. Say an everlasting, no, to it. And when you do and believe in Jesus Christ, conversion takes place, and your heart is converted, and you’re born again, and you become a new creature in Christ Jesus. Old things pass away and all things become new. But still, you have the magnetic power of society all around about you.

So, while you live on the earth and follow your Savior, it will be necessary that you frequently retire from society in order that you might break its stranglehold on your life, in order that you might destroy its power over you. Then when you come back to it, you come back as the master, not as the slave. You come back as the physician to the leper colony, not as another leper in the colony.

Now have I made myself clear? I’ve told you this morning, those that were here, that I thought that what I was going to say tonight, I haven’t a thing to say about the quality of the sermon. I’ve quit worrying about the kind of sermons I preach. Let young fellows worry about that. But I just want to get it across to you.

The point is, my Savior and yours, all the old Bible worthies and the saints down the centuries, have all had a strange habit of suddenly saying goodbye to the multitudes and getting alone with God, staying there a long period sometimes. Why? The answer is that they might break the stranglehold of a lost society over their individual beings. You’ll have to do it if you make good as a Christian. You’ll have to do it all by yourself–Himself alone. It’s a good text to remember. Himself alone.

And the next morning, or that same night, toward the morning, He was down with them, stilling the waves, blessing them. But He never would have had the calm self-assurance that He had if He had not been Himself alone with God.

Now, I wish I had a pill here. Wish I had as many as we have congregation, not very many out tonight. But I wish I had little capsules here and I’d say, now dear friends, it gives me great pleasure. I’ve got a capsule here and here I’ll let you use my water. Just a sip to get it down. Each one of you that’ll take this marvelous capsule, you’ll have no further trouble. You’ll be spiritual, you’ll be blessed, you’ll be wonderful, and you’ll be as happy as can be.

Until all passed by, filing down this aisle, I’d love to be able to do that, but I haven’t any such capsule. Not only that, nobody else has. Not only that, they never have been invented. God never sent any down.

He says, repent you individual of your past sins. Believe on Jesus Christ and then learn. Get retired sometimes from the crush of the world. From all human society, including your family, retire and shut that door. There alone with God, you’ll grow in grace, you’ll get wiser than Solomon, you’ll get as calm as a noon day, while the world screams and howls and rattles and blows its terrible whistles around about you.

Then when you’ve had your soul blessed, you can come back down where the poor, tired, noisy world is, whistling past its graveyards and talk to them about something worthwhile.

You see what I mean? You can’t be spiritual by learning a certain rule and you can’t be spiritual by taking a certain pill. You can only be spiritual by cultivating spirituality. And I believe, I don’t believe there’s a man around here so busy, but what God will fix it so you can get some time by yourself if you want to take it.

Suppose, for instance, that you spent with God the time you now spend with newspapers and magazines. What do you suppose the result would be in your life shortly? I think it’d be a tremendous change for the better. You do have time to read the newspapers. You do have time to listen to the radio, look at television. Do you have time for God?

Well, suppose that we ask God to help us tonight. I wonder how you feel about it. Have I preached all around Robin Hood’s famous proverbial barn or have I made myself clear? Are there those that say, this interests me.

I see the real reason of this. I believe I’ve lost out in the past because I haven’t done this. And I want to rearrange my schedule so that I can retire sometimes from the crush of society for a little time with God of cultivating spiritual things and calming my heart and listening to God speak in the silence.

And you’d like us to have prayer in closing that the Lord will begin providentially to work things out for you so you can get that time. I don’t say how frequently. I don’t say how long. I just say something like this has to be done if you’re going to make good and if you’re going to break the magnetic attraction of society upon your poor heart. Amen.

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“The Saints Must Walk Alone“

The Saints Must Walk Alone

Pastor and author

April 29, 1956

Summary

A.W.Tozer explores the idea that many great souls have been lonely, citing examples from the Old Testament. He argues that this loneliness may be necessary for saintliness, as God speaks more deeply and intimately to those who are alone with Him. Tozer emphasizes the significance of solitude for spiritual growth, highlighting biblical examples of figures like Abraham, Moses, Elijah, and Jesus Christ who experienced aloneness in their ministries. He notes that solitude can bring healing and restoration, but also lead to loneliness and isolation.

Message

Now, I want to talk today on this topic: The Saint Must Walk Alone. And in this verse of Scripture, you will find two things mentioned that are, both of which were characteristic of Jesus. The phrase, the multitudes went right along with our Lord Jesus, because He ministered to the multitudes, because He did miracles and cast out their devils and gave sight to their blind and because He spoke simply to the plain people. He had around Him many who wanted to listen to Him, which the Bible calls the multitudes, we call today, crowds.

Now, that was characteristic of our Lord Jesus Christ. But strangely enough, and contradictory as it may seem–there alone–is also characteristic of Jesus, from the time that His parents thought He was with them and found He was not and went back to look for Him and found Him away from them talking to the doctors. On down through His ministry, He was there alone, describes Jesus, about as well as, He was surrounded by the multitudes. I suppose that He was the world’s loneliest man though He was surrounded by these very crowds.

Now, what I want to develop today is that most of the world’s great souls, if not all of them, have been lonely. Loneliness would seem to be the price that the saint must pay for His saintliness. And in order to back up that statement, I want to take you on a little trip through the Old Testament, starting back there with Enoch.

That pious soul, Enoch, who in the morning of the world, walked with God, or perhaps I should say, not in the morning of the world, but in the time of the strange darkness that settled upon the world shortly after the dawn of man’s creation. Enoch walked with God. And while it does not say so in so many words, the inference is very plain, that he walked apart from his contemporaries. That the path he took was a path quite alone and separated from those who lived at the time he lived. He walked to his God. If everybody had been walking with God, then why should the Bible have mentioned that he walked with God? The fact that it was mentioned at all would seem to indicate, and I think we can safely infer that it is implied there, that Enoch walked a path apart from his contemporaries.

And then there was Noah. And all the evidence shows that Noah was a lonely man, that while he had his family, and while he was surrounded, we would suppose by workmen. Well, the ark was a building, yet Noah stood so apart from the multitudes that God picked him out and he found grace in God’s sight. And Noah must have been a man apart, a lonely man. Then come on down the years to the man, Abraham. Abraham had Sarah. He had Lot. He had his herdsman, and he had his servants. All that is very true. But I think it is very plain that his soul was like a star and dwelt apart, as words were said of Milton.

Apparently, God never spoke to the man Abraham in company. Now that’s quite a significant thought that God never spoke to him in company. Apparently, there were those things which God wanted to say to the man Abraham which He could not say with anybody listening. And Abraham evidently had a habit of praying face down, lying in delighted ecstasy in the presence of the great God of his fathers and of the world. And there Abraham prayed and called on God, and he was calling on God face down. Now the innate dignity of the man Abraham, for had that he should have assumed that posture in the presence of others. He would certainly not have lain on his stomach in prayer if there were people around him. So, we suppose that Abraham must have been, very often at least, a lonely man.

I believe that there are things that God wants to say to us which He cannot say in the presence of other people, just as there are things you say to your family or to your wife which you cannot say with others around. I believe that God wants to speak to us, and that He speaks more deeply and intimately and wonderfully when he can get our ear all by ourselves.

Now there is a community of Christian worship, and it is taught throughout the Bible. The very word church means an assembly of persons call out. But notice that it has two meanings, called out and assemble. And the fact that the people that make up the church are called out, speaks of loneliness. But the fact that they are called together, speaks also that there is in some measure an anodyne of medicine for that loneliness found in the fellowship of other Christians. But they are called out. And the man who is called out from his family as I was as a young fellow, called out when I was 17 years of age, to leave my family. And the worst part about it was, not called to leave them in body, but called to leave them in heart and live with Him and walk among them, and still be an alien to them.

And I know the language of the old man of God who said, I am become a stranger to my brethren and an alien to my mother’s children. That while you’re with them in presence, you are not with them in a heart, because your heart has been given to another, even the great God, and they don’t understand it, and so you’re called out. And there is the loneliness.

And then the other side of the picture is when you’re called together with persons of like mind, and for the time you’re with them. There is some healing medicine for your sorrow, but you’re lonely nevertheless. Abraham was and God gave Abraham the knowledge again that he was a man marked out, a man to receive divine grace, when Abraham was alone with his God.

Then there was Moses/ Something in the heart of the man Moses couldn’t stand the court of Pharaoh. It was the Vanity Fair. It was the Mome Cove. It was the Chez Paree, the Broadway, the Hollywood of the time. And the man Moses was there, and there by the providence of God for the time. He saved his life and took him there. And he was brought up and educated for a great job.

And God used Egypt, but Egypt had no affinity for the man Moses and nor he for it. For Moses was a Jew and his people were Jews, and the covenant belonged to him. And Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob were his ancestors, not the Egyptians. And the temple of God was to be, and the tabernacle was to be the center of his thought and life that was to come, not the pyramids and not the Sphinx and not the great buildings of Egypt.

There was a loneliness in the heart of the man Moses, even as a young man. There must have been, because he took long walks, and on one of those long walks, far out from any town, he saw an Egyptian and a Hebrew fighting together and came to the rescue of the Hebrew. And then of course, he had to leave Egypt and flee, and he did.

And for long years, he was alone in the desert. And it was in the loneliness of the nighttime when the birds were out. The day birds were going to rest, and the night birds were beginning to croak, that he saw all by himself that burning bush. If Moses had been at a party, if he’d had friends, if there had been people gathered around him or if he’d been running with a multitude, God never could have showed him the wonder of the burning bush. One of the most solemn and awful and glorious things that ever took place in Old Testament times was that burning bush experience. And Moses never would have seen it if it had not been that he was alone.

And then that scene on Sinai. He left the multitudes far below and took with him only one man, Joshua. And then left him a little behind as Jesus later did, leave his three close friends to pray. And Moses went on into the fire. And there he watched in fascinated awe, that Presence, partly revealed and partly concealed in the fire and in the cloud and came down with his face shining. But he came down because he had been alone. And he went to the multitude and could talk to them with authority, because he had been to the Source of Authority. He did not poll them to find out what he should say. He went to the mountain to learn what he should say, and then told them what they should hear. And that is always the spirit of the true man of God, the prophet of God. He does not send out questionnaires to poll the multitude to find out what they want. He goes to God to find out what they need, and then gives it to them whether he talks to 10 or 5000.

Now, there was Elijah in later years, and all the prophets, these men were alone. Elijah was alone, as much alone on that mountain, more alone on that mountain, as if everybody else in the world had died. For there he was, surrounded by his enemies and with the prophets of Baal ready to slay him. And yet, there he stood a lonely man, absolutely alone in the midst of a crowd of hate-filled opposers. And God spoke to him there and later in the cave and later as he stood outside the cave and watched the mountains rock and saw the trees shake and go down under the roar of the whirlwind. God spoke in a still small voice to his heart and told him in the aloneness of his inner life that which he never could have said or told him if he had not been alone.

Well, carry on over to the New Testament, and there we find Jesus Christ our Lord, I repeat, probably the world’s loneliest man. A little hymn says about him, ’Tis midnight, and on Olive’s brow the star is dimmed that lately shone; ’tis midnight; in the garden now the suff’ring Savior prays alone.  ’Tis midnight, and, from all removed, the Savior wrestles lone with fears: e’en the disciple that He loved heeds not his Master’s grief and tears.

Now that was Jesus, not only in the garden, but very many other places. Forty days alone in the desert and on the mountain alone many times and on the shore alone after His resurrection, Jesus Christ died alone and rose alone. I repeat, there are some things too sacred for the eye of any but God to see. And when our Lord died, God pulled the curtain of the night down around the cross in order that He might die alone.

And when He rose again, He rose unseen by the eye of mortal man. I don’t know whether angels saw Him rise, but I know men did not, as though God were saying, His birth and His death and His rising again are secret, and only My eye can look upon these awesome and awful and glorious scenes. So, God brought Him from the dead unseen by the eye of mortal man, though afterward, He was seen of James and Cephus and Paul and 500 brethren at once, and they told abroad what they had seen. But at the moment of His rising, only the eye of God saw. My dear people, there are experiences with God that you can only have by yourself.

You say you have family prayer with your wife. All right, very good. But there are things God can’t say to you in the presence of your wife. And there are things God can’t say to you in the presence of the dearest and sweetest Christian brother or sister that you know. There are secret communications which God can only tell us when we’re alone. It was the old Meister Eckhart who said that when God gets the temple all to Himself, He whispers what He is to the human heart. Brother McAfee sings a song about in thy secret inner chamber, thou wilt whisper what thou art. God can tell me some things in the crowds, but He can only tell me what He is when my heart is alone.

Now, that’s the price most people will not pay. And I suppose I might as well make the sermon short, but there’s a long line of noble pilgrims. They didn’t march abreast and certainly they didn’t march as armies do, four to eight abreast. They marched alone, and the march was alone, and the gaps were wide between them. But you will find if you know church history and the biographies of the saints, you will know that there is a long parade of holy men and women who lived and loved and labored and worked and made the world a better place and won many, established hospitals and colleges, and built churches and orphan asylums, and left behind them a trail of goodness and mercy wherever they went. And yet they belong to the lonely parade. Their day didn’t recognize them. Or if they did, they didn’t know them well enough to know who they were.

Well, the conventional reaction to what I’m saying now, I suppose I will have to take note of, though I don’t like ever to introduce such matters in a sermon, but there’s a conventional reaction to this, and I hear it in the little chirpy songs. And I hear it in the little chirpy articles that I get. And in the little chirpy testimonies I hear from time to time. And it will all sound the same. And they’re obviously conventional. They are not the true expression of what somebody feels, but the expression of how some people think they ought to feel. And so, their response to a sermon on the lonely soul, is to say, why I’m never lonely for Jesus is my Savior divine. And He said, I will never leave you, and how can I be lonely? How can I be lonely when I have Jesus only to be my companion and my constant friend. So, I’m never lonely.

Now, brother, I don’t want to reflect on the sincerity of any man, but I’d just like to tentatively state here, that it’s my conviction, that that’s too neat to be sincere. That we’re saying what we think ought to be said, rather than what we ever feel in our hearts. Because the people who are always chirping about the fact they’re never lonely, mean that they have never let themselves get to a place where God could separate them from the crowd and talk to them alone. They have had to have companionship and the psychological lift of other people around them in order to keep out of the doldrums.

So, they deliberately forsook the cave and the mountain peak and the sands of the seashore and the holy places and have gone with the multitudes in order to be able to live with themselves. Then because they think it’s proper, why they testify cheerfully, I’m not lonely, Jesus is with me, but what they feel is not the awful, awe-inspiring presence of God in the burning bush. It’s the psychological, social help that they get from the people.

Well, the pain of loneliness results from the constitution of our nature, because God made us for each other whether we know it or like it or not. God made us for each other. And He meant that we should have fellowship with each other, that He meant that we should complement each other, that each could complete the other and that He meant us to be a people together. But sin came in and made God’s children, people apart.

The world isn’t lonely, because the world runs together. They have invented all sorts of inventions in order to keep themselves from being lonely. If the public was not lonely and didn’t have to run together to cure its loneliness, Bob Hope would be probably collecting garbage out here and driving one of the big yellow trucks. And these other entertainers who make more than the President of the United States, would be doing some honest job somewhere.

But because people must have each other in their sinful Vanity Fair, we give to our entertainers pay that we don’t give to our educators nor to our leaders and politicians and statesmen who carry on their shoulders the weight of government. So, people are lonely, but they cure it by running together. But when a man gets converted, where can he run? He sees through all of that, and he knows why they’re like that. And he therefore must be to some degree at least a lonely man. And his desire for human fellowship which God put in him and which is good and holy and right, that companionship, that desire for companionship, creates a pain within his own heart. Though he’s got to walk alone, because there are so few in any given area that walk with God.

You people who work in offices, now, if you work in Deerfield or Moody, or Scripture Press or somewhere where they’re Christians, that’s another matter. But you people who work in offices or factories or shops or go to schools where there’s nobody that knows your language, aren’t you forced to be somewhat lonely? I think so. You try to get along with people the best you can, but always you speak a language they don’t understand.

And always they’re thrilled about something that leaves you bored. And always you’re concerned with something that they don’t even understand. And there must be that loneliness and there is, the saint must walk alone. For loneliness is the price the saint must pay for his saintliness. But the man that knows God and knows himself, certainly is not going to find very many people that understand him.

Now, you’ll find a lot of companionship in religious circles without a doubt. There isn’t a place anywhere, I suppose, between here and the the Bahamas, where there hasn’t been least 1512 get togethers and rib roasts and ham consumptions over the last week, and all done in the name of the Lord. I was to one last night.

So, we do that and it’s all right, and I have no objection. But I am saying, my brethren, that there is beyond that thing, further in than that will take you, further on in behind the scenes than your kind fellowship that we have together, and I love it and don’t think I don’t, and I do. But I’m talking about the beyond, the going on in. I’m talking about going on in past where the commonalities, the simple expressions and the chit chat and the shop talk and the friendly banter is all left behind you and there you are.

The old world looks like an ash pile to you and heaven shines there and you look up and talk about it, and they claim you’re absent minded. Or they claim you’re anti-social or unsocial, or that you’re arrogant, that you are holier than thou. But my brethren, the man who knows himself can have the fellowship that comes, I suppose to a certain degree with religious activities. But as a man goes on with God, the hopes and the longings and the disappointments and the aspirations and the radiance that comes from the heart of Christ, all these things will not be understood. And a man will have to walk by himself. But I’m not complaining about it.

And I don’t want you to. For I know that this very loneliness throws us back upon God. God has to do this to bring us back on Himself. We would never, never seek Him if it were not that we see through the emptiness of man’s social fellowships. And to a large degree we see through the emptiness of man’s religious fellowships, and we don’t want to die like that. I don’t want to have to die in a crowd. Or if I do die in a crowd, I don’t want to have to have the crowd in order to die in comfort.

I don’t want to have to have anybody in order to die in comfort. I know how they do when you die, they surround your bed if you’re lucky enough to last long enough for them to get there, and some weep and some hope and some stand around. And we die in a crowd usually, at least a few people around. But God help the man that has to have help when he is dying. God help the man that has to be surrounded and cheered up and his hand held, and his brow patted in order to keep him from terror in the hour of his demise. God pity that man.

For just as you were born alone, you will die alone. And though you were surrounded by friends and helpers and doctors and nurses, and your mother was there and all the rest, you were born alone. And when you die, you will die alone. So, we’d better get used to a loneliness that isn’t a loneliness. Saint Paul said it back here in this last great book that he wrote. He’s said at my first answer, that is before Nero, his first trial, not his second, the second condemned Him. But the first trial, at my first answer, no man stood with me. But all men forsook me and I pray God that it may not be laid to their charge. Now here he was, he had just testified a few chapters on before that he had finished his course. He had kept the faith. He fought a good fight. He had won a crown. And now henceforth it was laid up for him the treasures of righteousness in the world to come.

That was the happy spiritual Paul, but the hungry-hearted human Paul, couldn’t even in his old age, and when he knew it was his last thing he would ever write, he couldn’t help but say, I can’t get over thinking about it, in that my first answer, no man stood with me. I had taught them to believe in Jesus. I had brought them out of darkness and showed them the Light. I had preached the gospel to them. I had hazarded my life for them. I’d gone hungry for them. I’d been poor and ragged for them. And I stitched tents way into the night that I might be free to preach to them.

But when I was before Nero, no man stood with me, but all men forsook me. I pray God that it may not be laid to their charge. But he said cheerfully enough, notwithstanding, the Lord stood with me and strengthened me. He was lonely, but he wasn’t alone. He was lonely because he wanted his friends around him there. But he was not alone, because the Lord stood with him and strengthened. So the lonely man is not alone. He’s just lonely. The lonely Christian is not one who is alone. A hermit could be alone and not feel lonely. But the Christian’s loneliness springs from his inability to find very many people who speak his spiritual language or have ever been where he’s been.

And then, his loneliness throws him back upon God. David said, when my father and my mother forsake me, then the Lord will take me up. Now, being forsaken by your father and mother is about as neat and as vivid a way of saying that you’re by yourself as it’s possible; when they lead you to the door and turn you out, why, you’re alone. But David said, when they do for Christ’s sake, then the Lord takes me up.

Now, the lonely soul ought not to be surprised, because he is a rather odd individual. He lives a strange life, this lonely Christian, man or woman, lives strange life. The things that make some people laugh; he doesn’t think are funny. And the things that some people will give their soul for he considers absolute refuse. And the desire for gain that some people have, he’s strangely unmoved by it.

My old dad, he said about two of his sons. He said, I have two sons. He had three. I don’t know why he didn’t count the younger one. He was still at home a boy. But he said, I have two sons, one of them makes all he can and keeps all he gets. The other won’t take anything and what you give him he gives away. And I’ve always rather cherished that as a rather disgusted but remarkable testimony to my brother and me. That my brother made all he could get and kept all he made. And I wouldn’t take anything and when I got it I gave it away. I hope that’s true in some measure yet, but it was when he uttered that testimony surely.

You’re an odd person when you’re like that, brother. There’s no question about it. The Christian is an oddity because he talks to somebody he can’t see and professors a loyalty to a kingdom that his eyes have never looked upon and seeks the praise and exultation of another and doesn’t seek anything for himself. That makes the Christian an odd being. And of course, being odd, he’s a speckled bird and being a speckled bird, he has shied away from by the rest.

But I’d like to add this before I close that the soul apart is not a holier than thou individual, satirized so bitterly by popular literature, because the soul apart, his very loneliness stirs him to pity for others. And do you know who it has been that has built all the hospitals or the Christian hospitals? Do you know who it’s been that’s founded the missionary societies? Do you know who they have been that have gone to heathen lands and like our good Dr. Crowell and built a little tiny hospital there. Do you know who they’ve been? They’ve always been the souls that have been rejected, and their father and their mother forsook them, so to speak.

And the Lord found them and their very yearning after humankind. And the fellowship with a world that rejected them and that they couldn’t fellowship because it was sinful; that very pain has very often driven them to poured out devotion and sacrifice. What was it that drove Livingstone way up into the heart of Africa? What was it that drove a sick and delicate Dr. Jaffrey all over the Far East? What was it that drove Simpson to walk up and down on the shores of the ocean out in New England and saying every pebble on the shore was a lost man to my praying heart?

What was it? What was it that caused men and women every place down the centuries to found the hospitals and to look after the old folks and take care of the children and have places for the insane to go where they could be cared for? Ah, it was always the separated man, the lonely soul, the soul that just couldn’t find what he wanted in the world. It just didn’t offer it. It wasn’t there. This odd number, this strange fellow, because he couldn’t laugh at their jokes. Why, they say he’s a sourpuss. And because he wasn’t interested in all of their silly chatter, they said that he was party killer and that he was dull and not interesting. But he walked with his God, and he left betrayal of luminous blessing behind him. And they’re all over the world. No, no, not holier than thou, not the arrogant, proud souls that walked with his chin up and tramps the people he considers to be beneath him.

Jesus Christ, the loneliest man in all the world, put His hands on the head of babies and smiled and blessed them and talked to their mothers and cast out devils and healed the sick and chattered with the poor and went away, leaving the eyes of the poor shining.

The priests and the rabbi walked in their robes with their phylacteries dangling, and in their pride called the multitude, these, this multitude that’s cursed, knowing not the law. But the lonely Jesus walked among them and was lonely while he healed them and blessed them and forgave them and turned their eyes upward and talked to them about the mansions above in the Father’s house. So don’t let anybody tell you that I’m preaching a withdrawn, monkish type of Christianity. I am not. I am saying that the very longing after human fellowship and the inability to find it much in the Earth makes men and women good workers and hard workers.

Well, because the lonely man is detached from the world, he’s able to help it. And because others are attached to the world, they’re unable to help it. The weakness of so many modern Christians is that they feel too much at home in the world. The simple little song people sing, that I don’t feel at home in the world anymore, the modern can’t sing except to smile and think it’s cute, because they do feel at home in the world. They avoid loneliness by adjusting and integrating and becoming a part of the very system they’re sent to protest against. And the world recognizes them for what they are and accepts them. And that’s the saddest thing that can be said about them. No, they’re not lonely, but neither are they saints. And they profess a name that they don’t know. They claim to follow a Savior that’s so far out ahead of them, they cannot even see the shadow of His holy back as he walks away.

My brethren, seek God in the loneliness of your own soul and see what happens to you. See, if all the truth you know won’t begin to glow. And the doctrines that have lain in your heart bedridden in the dormitory of your soul, Skullridge said, won’t take fire and begin to burn with a strange, luminous fire. And heaven will open, and you’ll see visions of God. Then like Moses and Ezra and the rest, you can come back to be a blessing to the very world you had to desert. But if you don’t desert it, you can’t help it. For the saint must walk alone.